Let’s be honest. We all at some point in our lives fight off depression, and well, postpartum depression I can honestly say was the hardest fight I’ve ever had to fight. When I had my first born, I didn’t know what to expect. After giving birth (naturally) and being completely fine afterwards, the minute I got home I felt completely alone. I had a lot of emotional support from my partner but, nothing seemed to feel right. I could not get adjusted to life again. I felt extremely emotional and I thought it would never disappear. Shortly after my first, I had gotten pregnant again with my son and postpartum luckily went away and didn’t come back as bad until I had my fifth child, than it got bad. Now, by bad I don’t mean I intended to harm myself but I felt like if I had, I’d be better off and so would my kids. I felt like now, as a mom of five my life was completely over. I was in excruciating pain from the C-Section and was told I may need spinal surgery after birth and I’d know for sure within 7-10 weeks after my son was born. The pain in my stomach and back for the first weeks after birth was unbearable. I thought I would never get my life back. I wanted to disappear and thought everyone was better off without me. I isolated myself, I became distant from my partner and cried myself to sleep in silence. I cried in my showers and while I nursed my son at night. I was miserable and I knew I needed to fix myself immediately before the kids started to realize or I got worse. I researched everything and found nothing. No group chats helped, no therapist was understanding because not even I understood what I was feeling. It was a nightmare. I was living in someone else’s body. I was no longer myself, until one night I woke up, and I was burning up. The air conditioning was on and still I was sweating and my body inside and out was burning, I decided to throw myself into a cold shower. I kid you not when I say the shower felt warm to me, that’s how hot my body was. I stayed in the shower until I cooled off a bit and realized as soon as I got out that I felt different. I felt energized, now let me tell you, that was honestly the LAST thing I’d want to be at 3AM but it felt good to feel that again. I had lost so much energy after having my son that I felt new. The same day, around noon I started to feel depression and fatigue creeping on me. I felt it pushing its way toward my mind and I wasn’t having it. I decided “fuck it..I’ll try a cold shower.” At least I wouldn’t be depressed AND tired. I’d just fight off the depression as it came, but at least I wouldn’t be tired doing it. What happened that day was a miracle, to be honest. I felt new again, like not even depressed! I was in complete shock and just didn’t even want to tell anyone about what I was experiencing yet. I took a cold shower every day for a week, then two and before I knew it my son was three months old, I was taking cold showers twice a day and my postpartum depression never returned. I was back to my usual self again, only 150% better than before! As I write this, I’m smiling holding my son. I’m writing in hopes of cold “therapy” showers helping another mommy, like myself fight off postpartum depression naturally without medications!! It sounds ridiculous to some, but if you’ve ever felt it, if you’ve ever had postpartum depression than you know how it feels to wish and pray to be “normal” again. I don’t know if this can help everyone but I feel it can! The benefits of cold showers (5-10 minutes a day) changed my life on the FIRST try. I don’t think I’ll ever go back to my old hot shower routine!